I have shared a few times with my Blogging friends, that although I know I have been forgiven of my past sins through God’s Love and Mercy and of this I have no doubt but I do not take lightly that I’m responsible for Jesus’ suffering, do I disregard and take lightly how much I have hurt Him, Paul didn’t he confessed being the worst of sinners and King David pored out his regret for how he had hurt God even though they like us were forgiven, can we stop giving Thanks that our sins after heart repentance were taken away as far as the east is to the west and God does not keep a record of them so we will not stand in judgment for them only accountability for our rewards.
Yes as I shared, Jesus took away the shame of what I have done when He suffered on the cross, my conscience has been cleansed and I don’t walk in defeat but I do not rejoice or take lightly how much I hurt Jesus. By my failing to show Love and Compassion to others even Children who were starving of hunger, I was grieving Him. Or do I forget when I hurled insults at Jesus by abusing others and not having time for them or the pain I caused Him when I punched Him in the stomach by deliberately choosing to lie to cover my sin instead of repenting from the heart or when I spat in His face by being involved with the Occult as a young woman, which is Satan’s playground. Can I forget that I continued to spit in Jesus’ face every day by reading my stars and also causing others to sin by reading their future in the Tara cards, which encouraged them to believe the lie that someone other then God knows the future.
What about continually whipping Jesus by failing to give thanks for His many blessings even claiming I was just lucky and taking his name in vain or when I cruelly pieced His side by showing disrespect to my Husband and not Loving him unconditionally and also being resentful when things didn’t go the way I wanted, can I overlook not honoring and submitting to him in his God given role as my Spiritual Leader.
I also hurt greatly my Abba Father, because of my sins I separated Him from His beloved Son and yet Jesus gave His all to save me, even asking that I be forgiven while He was in agonizing pain and His heart was breaking and yes He did this even though I caused Him great suffering more than anyone can comprehend… it was my sins not just someone else’s that nailed Him to that Cross to suffer and die and it was me who pieced his hands with rusty nails.
Sadly I could continue to share the many ways that I have abused Jesus, I really feel I could say like Paul..” I’m the worst of sinners” which we all are, we have all hurt Jesus greatly it was our sin not God The Father that caused Jesus to suffer but He knew it would break His Fathers heart to see us perish so He willingly chose the only way left to save us and set us free from the Slavery of sin.
Jesus suffered so we would not be punished and so we could walk in freedom through God’s Grace, Mercy and forgiveness and His empowering, I do not have the right not to forgive others for the wrong they do to me or those I Love. Do I wait for them to say sorry No! but of course they can’t receive my forgiveness until they do this is the same with our repentance but forgiving sets me free so Satan doesn’t have a foothold in my life because of my being bitter and resentful.
I would once again like to share “Through The Eyes Of A Child” see link below, each time I read this heart wrenching response from a young girl as she witnessed Jesus being Crucified for our sins, I’m aware that for many years I did not grieve for the pain I caused Jesus, can we dismiss it lightly with a ” I’m sorry” but than go on hurting Him, that is not what heart repentance is all about.
Christian Love Always in our Unity in Christ Jesus – Anne.