What motivated me to write about my Addictions today was although I had felt the need to do so for some time, it was when I was reading a Post message that I felt motivated to, it was written by Tj who is a qualified Social Worker, Writer and Speaker specializing in behaviour modification and mental illness and at-risk families for over 20 years, he is seeking to help others in the conflicts they are experiencing in life, below is his links on Addictions but his messages cover other Social problems too.
Tj reminded me that many suffer as I have from Addictions, yes it’s a choice to start with but once Satan gets a foothold it is very hard to break free and so brings with it suffering both physical and mental and also sin, that hurts God, us and others, in Truth only Jesus our Lord and Saviour can cut the chains that bind us and set us free from it’s Slavery, He Loves the Sinner but Hates the sin.
John 8:34-36 Jesus replied, “I tell you the truth, everyone who Sins is a slave to Sin. Now a slave has no permanent place in the family, but a son belongs to it forever. So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.
But we need to allow Him to do so by repenting and choosing not to continue in our bondage by denying it’s power over us, than putting to death our flesh, seeking to do good as He empowers us through The Holy Spirit, this is obedience not works, we are than able to walk free as we can with all sin, Jesus has set us free to walk in His Victory.
Romans 6:11 Likewise reckon ye also yourselves to be dead indeed unto Sin, but alive unto God through Jesus Christ our Lord.
What we believe in our heart dominates our thoughts and becomes our words and actions. Proverbs 23:7a K.J.V
What does God say we are to believe and claim when we are Born again…..
1 John 3:9 No one who is Born of God will continue to Sin, because God’s seed remains in him; he cannot go on Sinning, because he has been Born of God.
I was Bulimic when I was a Teenager and continued to be till I was 30 and I also had Kleptomania which started at school, I never stole large items but I did steal and during that time I also became addicted to Gambling. Both the Bulimia and the Kleptomania disappeared when I started going to Church, at that time I chose not to do them feeling convicted they were wrong and by God’s grace I didn’t at that time. I was also very busy doing Church work and Ron was not interested in Clubs, so gambling was also not a problem until later.
How did the Gambling start again, by pleasing someone who was worldly, if it keeps her happy what harm could a game of Bingo do and than later a few dollars in the Poker machines but it lead me back to the Gambling Addiction which was still in my Carnal flesh, it had not been put to death, I didn’t know I had to and how to, I do now. Not many realize even the gambling Addiction has physical symptoms and withdrawal, like Drugs and Alcohol and others do.
A few Christian friends warned me in Love that I was in danger, it was not appreciated at the time but later when I was delivered, I thanked them and have great respect for their willingness to rebuke even risking our friendship because they Loved me enough to do so.
I went to G.A but it did not help long term as Jesus was substituted for a god of our own understanding and also continually saying I was a gambler only reinforced it and it was the feel good feelings of belonging and the applause and acceptance for not gambling each week that motivated me not to gamble but this was only fleshy restraint and I was still sinning in other ways.
I stopped gambling for three years but it was a continual battle as my Carnal flesh had not been put to death. They say gambling when someone is fully addicted either ends in suicide or insanity, with me it was believing the only way out was death, I just couldn’t escape it’s grip, in the end I hated what I was doing but could not stop! you can read about my rescue and deliverance in detail on the link below…..
After my rescue and deliverance I was tempted 4 years later to gamble again, but instead of doing so I asked Jesus to help me and walked away, this was the same with stealing which at one time I was tempted to do again, it has now been many years since I gambled and I have never stolen again and I have no desire to do these at all.
With Bulimia, I found there was a much better way that gives freedom to choose a good balance in what we eat when combined with moderate exercise (see link below)
Obesity today is mostly motivated more by our physical limitations, medication, our perception of what we are capable of, our weaknesses and shortcomings and also by wrong Dieting advice which is not balanced and causes guilt and fear but mostly by our unsettled emotions, the same as with other Addictions they can reinforce long team destructive bad habits. Yes these habits and emotions can also be broken by replacing them with new ones and keeping our focus on Jesus as we seek to be perfected in His image, to Heal, to Teach and to Guide us.
I’m seeking now to do this everyday although with my weight I’m now limited physically and cannot exercise at all, so I’m learning how to loose weight without exercise, a problem that many face who are Disabled or are Seniors with disabilities and as I never give up on People or what is important for theirs or my own well being, I keep focusing on Jesus who has all the answers, so if you are lead by Him and have walked in my shoes or are now, I would appreciate your advice so please leave a link on this Post .
To be sure I felt I was worthless in my Gambling Addiction but when God rescued me at the point of death, I realized how great was His Love and Mercy and He has showed me many times since that I’m a person of worth whom He greatly Loves and always did … do I deserve this, no not at all but He continues to greatly bless me which leaves me in Awe and Thankfulness.
I hurt Him so much and others and yes myself too, most Addictions lead to suffering and to sin and sin destroys all the goodness in us unless we have True heart repentance, shown by our actions. I now have assurance in my heart that I’m forgiven and I’m precious to God, He is Love and can do no evil, does He condone it, No! does He forgive, Yes and without condemning us!
I’m aiming now as Paul did to be perfected in Love and putting my Carnal flesh to death, not waiting till I die which is not confirmed in Scripture but now as I live on earth, just like Paul and other Christians have done through the Centuries.
No I have not arrived yet, so if you find fault with me, ask yourself have you arrived but if you believe I’m sinning or in error, than please rebuke and correct me in Love and for Love and confirm with Scripture why you believe I am on the link below….
Resolving Conflict- http://alifeofhopeandjoy.wordpress.com/2014/07/14/the-garden-sanctuary/
I would really appreciate your correction in obedience to God if you feel it is needed, instead of doing what some have done which is not how God asks us to resolve our differences.
These people denied me to be a person of worth, by slandering and critically gossiping about me behind my back and intentionally deleting and ignoring my comments, playing games with my emotions and seeking to discredit me for my weaknesses and shortcomings, just like immature young people do on Facebook, Twitter etc They have also called me crazy but than they called Jesus mad too and I do have proof of all of this.
Yes as they carnally judge and treat others so they will be judged and treated but as they are my enemies, I forgive them, Love and pray for them and I don’t seek revenge but I do warn others if they are in danger but not by my own agenda and I would help anyone if they had genuine needs but I do not accept their evil words and actions and known insincerity which is really disrespect and I will correct, rebuke and warn when needed and also do not fellowship with them if it puts me in danger of being hurt again but if they apologize or turn from evil and seek to do good, I will commend and thank them and move on in Love putting the past behind and choosing not to remember the hurt they caused.
A few expressions I don’t use now are I Bet you and Lucky, both originated through gambling, some claim Lucky came from the word Lucifer but I’m not sure although trusting in Luck and not God is very evil.
Thank you for listening, Christian Love Always in our Unity with Jesus Christ, your Blogging friend – Anne.