I would like to share with you about a special day in my life that is both sad and wonderful, at the time I did not know the full significance of what it meant but I felt very comforted by the reassurance from my Abba Father and as I recall it now, I’m reminded just how much He Loves us all.
Some of you know I’m Adopted and that it was not always easy for me, in telling you what happened on this day it may seem I’m putting my Mum down but she had a big heart although sadly being an Atheist most of her life at least in her head, her focus was worldly. I know in her own way she loved me and my two Brothers who she had also given a home to, as much as she could love us but without God’s Love, only as much as she could love us.
I had gone to Mums early this day to clean her windows and venetian blinds, I needed to finish in time to go to a Know Your Bible class which I planned to do on the way home. I had only been going to Church a short time and I felt it would help me know more about God after being deceived that I came from an Ape, I felt a little nervous as I was not sure how I should respond if they asked any questions about what I believed, I was still seeking to understand the basics.
I had almost finished cleaning the windows when Mum came in, she said they looked good and than said she wanted to tell me something, I stopped cleaning and sat down with her.
Mum said that I needed to know that when she died me and my Adopted brothers would not receive the same inheritance as her own Children and that although she did love me it was not in the same way as she loved them and this was only normal and also her own Children deserved more because they have gone without so we could live with her and her husband my second Dad.
I felt deep pain, I can’t explain it but I was hurting so badly, I said to Mum I was running late and had to go, I ran to my car and burst into tears, I felt I didn’t measure up, I wasn’t as good as others, just second class, I had tried so hard to earn Mum’s Love but I had failed, I didn’t care about the money, my heart was breaking, why couldn’t anyone Love me, was I so horrible, so ugly why, why, what had I done!
Those who have read my early years will understand why it hurt me so much, I was driving but because I was crying I decided to park at the Church were the Know Your Bible class was but I didn’t intend to go in, I was just too upset but to continue driving was dangerous.
I calmed down and than sat watching the woman arrive for the class, I noticed they seemed happy as they were talking together and there were lots of smiles. I don’t know what changed my mind but I decided to go in too and sat down at the back hoping nobody would notice that I had been upset.
After a short welcome we were separated into groups, because it was my first time and having not done any homework, I just sat back and listened, they were sharing their answers in reference to the previous lesson. After they finished the Leader introduced the new Bible Lesson.
Wow! what she said started me crying all over again but this time with Joy, of course I didn’t understand it all as I do now but she was saying that God has Adopted us and we are co – heirs with Jesus, yes me too! somebody that nobody wanted, I was Adopted by God and I was not second class.
The Leader and Author Jean Ratten who had started Know Your Bible asked me if I was OK, I told her what had happened, she was as excited as I was, Jean had written that lesson 3 mths before, yet I had come on the very day it was shared and when I needed it most.
Galatians 4:4-6 But when the fulness of the time was come, God sent forth His Son, made of a woman, made under the law, To redeem them that were under the law, that we might receive the Adoption of sons/daughters. And because ye are sons/daughters, God hath sent forth the Spirit of His Son into your hearts, crying, Abba, Father.
Can we ever doubt how much we are Loved, yes years later I got into a big mess but God did not stop Loving me, He did not condemn me but He did say go and sin no more and He gave me the Freedom so I could.
Ephesians 1:4-6 According as He hath chosen us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in Love Having predestinated us unto the adoption of children by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will, To the praise of the glory of His grace, wherein He hath made us accepted in the Beloved.
Romans 8:14-17 For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons/daughters of God.For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.The Spirit itself beareth witness with our spirit, that we are the children of God And if children, then heirs; heirs of God, and joint-heirs with Christ; if so be that we suffer with Him, that we may be also glorified together.
Thank you for listening before I close I want to share a link with you about my friend Kathy who was also Adopted but her story is very different…
We remember God knows every hair on our head and His Loving thoughts of us outnumber the grains of sand. We Never, Never, Never stop thanking Him for His great Love towards us.