I never held my Babies in a warm and Loving embrace or watched with wonder the joy that brightened their face,
I never saw their smiles or held them in my arms or was I ever enraptured by all their Childlike charms.
Although my dreams were many and I longed to hold them close the joy of their Childhood I never was to know.
Part of me was taken the day they laid them to rest and yet in my heart I knew it was for the best.
All the pain and anguish I had within my soul needed to be healed before I could be whole.
They are my precious ones and will always be in my heart and
my Love for them will never ever depart.
Do I understand God’s purposes in this life I may never know
but I trust and believe His promise that with Him only
His Love will be shown.
For deep within my heart I know without a doubt that my Children are in Heaven that’s what grace is all about.
God knew from the beginning that their life on earth was short, He holds them in His arms and His joy they have always known, calling them by name they are a part of His eternal home for He knew them in His heart right from the very start.
My Heavenly Father knows my pain and He listens to my cry and with deep Compassion He wipes the tears from my eyes.
He fills my heart with wonder holding me close in His arms and nothing can compare not the world and all it’s charms.
He understands my needs for He sees within my soul and other Children’s arms He gives to ease the pain and His Love is not restrained as He makes me whole again.
Knowing Joy that only a mother’s Love can feel for the wonder of His Children the Lord gives to help us heal.
We are God’s Children and are fully known sharing our happiness, turmoil and pain but we no longer bear any shame,
As we walk together His way we have come to know putting our Trust in Christ Jesus His Hope and Joy will show.
Often I wonder how it would have been if I had known my Children as they fulfilled their dreams.
Did I need the Compassion that not sharing with them would bring, does this thorn I have give Love within my heart for all of God’s Children who are being torn apart.
This is something I may never understand but God holds me by my hand giving His Joy that only His Love can impart deep in my heart.
I will never hold the Children that I carried under my breast not until in Heaven I reach my Eternal rest,
But God’s grace was shown and my life has been greatly blessed.
So thank you all for being a part of the wonder and Joy in my heart for even in the hard times when in pain I shed a tear I know that in Jesus arms He will take away my fear and by giving you His compassion and His Love He draws me near.
Penned By Annie